I am almost 4 months into my first job. Let me tell you, being a brand new developer is HARD. Being a new developer out of a bootcamp when everyone else is out of computer science programs just makes you have a chip on your shoulder. Do I know what I am doing? When will people figure out I’m totally unqualified. More on this in a later blog post about bootcampers and imposter syndrome.
I have a moment yesterday. I put a code review in with limited help on my story and just felt like “hey, I might be getting this.” It is such a good feeling to not totally feel way over your head in learning a code base in addition to entry level software dev skills.
To all the junior devs out there, it will come and when it does it will make you want to high five people around you. You got this!
A bit of my backstory.
My development experience started when I was 15 on different blog sites were I wanted to make sure my angsty posts had a beautiful html site. I briefly took a C++ class that I did extremely poorly in my Freshman year of college, at that point I felt like coding was just not for me.
Things got put on hold when I had my first child, I struggled with postpartum depression and really didn’t have the energy or motivation to do anything for awhile. I followed up with twins. The twins were a game changer. I struggled HARD with PPD and PPA, I was even hospitalized. It was during that time that I made the choice to head in the direction of development and signed up for a bootcamp.
I started my afterhours .Net/C# bootcamp at Grand Circus in October of 2018 when my first was 3.5 and the twins were 5 months old. It was 6 months of watching kids during the day and trying to get homework done in between everything. Three nights a week I didn’t see my family, didn’t help with the kids and bedtime. My partner stepped up and really supported me during that time. I could not have made it through my bootcamp without that.
After 6 months I finished as one of the top of my Bootcamp with glowing recommendations from my Teacher and TA. I found a job several weeks before the end of bootcamp and was so relieved going into the final project knowing I had that.
So many times in bootcamp I was so worried that maybe I was going to fall behind, that maybe I wasn’t cut out to be a developer or that I just didn’t have the ability to code. We ended up winning the final project at Demo Day which is where we presenting to employers and other people in the industry. It was so validating to finally be able to say “hey, you rocked this” and have even an award to show for it.
I’m sitting here over three months into my first development job and still have the moments that I don’t know what I’m doing and people are going to catch on to it. But I am getting better and better each day.